Self-esteem Meter Went Down

Wanna know what? Sometimes I feel that my spoken English language is okay but since I am working at the new place, I don't think so. My confidence level in speaking the language is low. Even though the people here are using Manglish sometimes, but I think I can't converse with them. But, back in study time, I can speak and converse with every body. Even at my old office. I can just speak normally with Kamal but not with Nafee or Mr. Boss. haishh.

I even asked my Principal about this. You know what's her answer? "Your English is excellent Sara". The same answer I get from my best friend and my lecturer. But, I don't think so. Even when I'm writing here in the blog too. I don't feel that my English is good enough. Sigh.

Sometimes, I even think to myself. How am I going to teach English subject and how on earth am I going to teach an International class? How am I going to talk to the parents?

I do not know. I think what my mom and sister said really give a GREAT impact. When this thing is happening to me, I remember an old friend of mine once said "You are good in what you are doing. Your mom and sister never believe of your credibility because they are seeing the little me, the baby me". Maybe that old friend of mine is correct, but, .............