Looking Myself In the Mirror

After working with SOLS, I think that I am not the old me any more. I used to be a spoilt brat, a picky eater, always complaining about things and feeling down all the time. But now, I know that we can't get things and support easily. We have to earn them. How are we going to earn them? One of the ways of course by working to get money and survive but, other that? What else can make us happy? Money? Clothes? Handbags? Gadgets? To me, to survive in this world is to be thankful of what we get.

Here in SOLS, accommodation and food are provided but, of course just a simple room for two, no air conditioner, only two toilets and bathrooms for the whole floor but, I am thankful because I do not have to think about waking up early in the mornings to go to work, no tolls and the parking is free! If I got tonnes of work to do and no time to do my laundry, but hey, I can run upstairs to wash all my dirty clothes and go back down to do my work. Same goes to food. As long as there's food on the table, I'm not gonna die. Even though the food is not what I like, but I keep reminding myself "If all matsallehs here can eat without wasting the food, I can too".

We are all humans, and we are not perfect and of course sometimes we get frustrated and disappointed but it is not the reason we can't change ourselves. Things happened for a reason and we should change ourselves first before changing people. I am a teacher but I have to correct myself before correcting others. I want to work in community centres but, I have to educate myself that serving people is not only just a job; we get blessings from God and charity is not only in money form but energy and moral support as well. To be that, I have to be very strong in facing every challenge that is in front of me. I think I found peace here.



P/s : I don't do gossips because gossips are only looking at people's flaws and forgetting that we have more flaws than that person. Why don't us live without gossips? Let them living their lives.